I haven't written in so long... mainly because I had nothing nice to say. I was laid off for the second time in December. They gave us 60 days... but at the end of 60 days I still didn't have a job. I ended my employment at WaMu feeling totally dejected and worthless... why would anyone want to hire me, I mean hell I can't pick a company that stays open longer than a few months. It was so hard for me to deal with... totally truthfully I barely got out of my pj's for a month. 2 weeks ago I started looking at some blogs, there are two that I follow faithfully and both women are amazing. I have learned so much from Ashley, her faith in the Lord and in her family is truly inspiring to me. How can I complain about anything when I see her family and her smile... she has a faith that I will always admire. Then there is Freida, ahh Freida. I have known her for 14 years. Looking at her blog and the way that she is constantly re-inventing herself and trying to follow her wonderful words of wisdom. She is another wonderful woman that I admire... the reason for my tangent here... After reading up on both families I realized that there is so much more to life than the dark chocolate and coffee that I was going through like water... so I got my stuff together, took a job, started back in the gym and then I looked at my events calendar... no time to feel sorry for myself, there is no reason to.
Then this week I realized we are registering K for kindergarten... I am so sad and happy all at once. My baby is going to start school, it's all downhill now. She is going to start smarting off, wanting a cell phone and having boyfriends all too soon. Seriously, the girl already has a boyfriend and he isn't the first.... at this pace 10 years may kill me. ha ha. I am amazed at looking at her every day, good bad or indifferent she is amazing and loving. I can have a horrible day and she gives me a hug and it's basically all better.
So in my life this is where I stand...
I have a job - not my dream job but it pays
My baby is starting kindergarten in 6 months
My husband is amazing and supportive... he gives me what I need in this world and I am truly grateful! For valentines day Grant and I went to SD and spent the night in a hotel, we even slept in until 9:30! I feel so blessed for this man, his family and our child... The Lord works in mysterious ways and he is proof of that! I love him!
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Well, Ms. Shana. I think first, give credit where credit is due... you my dear are very inspiring... with your platform on D.V. and your volunteering... your dedication to walk again! And then to top it off... let's not forget your most important role as wife and mother! I think often times people don't stop long enough to take the time to share with others how their actions and outlook on life have inspired them. You, my friend, inspire me!
Second, we are all more alike then unlike... we all have peak moments when we feel like we have life right where we want it... or at least heading in the direction we desire... and other moments when we feel defeated, tired, worn thin, envious, sad... (I could go on)... but I won't, you get my point. As mothers, we should all get each other... we know that life with kids is full and beautiful and challenging and rewarding and hard! I think what I appreciate about you, Shana, is that you give life your all, fall down... take some time, and give it another go. Does that make sense? I appreciate that about you, you come real.
I agree with your comment about Ashley and her faith and I admire her every time I take a glimpse into her life via her blog. My faith, at this point, is no where near hers... so when life happens I place a lot of it in my hands... hence, exhausting me as a mom, wife, woman.
As for your title... "Update... LIFE"... it's always changing, surely. I've learned that however I am feeling in the present (wearing my pjs all day kind of a mood or taking over my little world)... it is exactly where I should be. I allow myself to feel my emotions and do not apologize for them. If you did not have the rain in your life you would never be able to appreciate the beautiful rainbows that follow.
True?
I'm glad you are blogging again. =)
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