New job... New outlook

I started a new job last week... I feel better knowing that I am contributing to my family. I have been trying to walk Kona every morning for 1/2 hour to help get me motivated int he morning... truth be told I have only been able to get my butt up at 5:15 3 times INCLUDING today but hey it's better than none.
I am competing in May, very nervous ( there is a swimsuit portion) and very excited as I would love to win and be able to really promote my platform of Domestic Violence Awareness. Domestic Violence cuts across all ethnic, geographic and economic groups. Calls to police come from the most affluent gated communities, and the crowded apartment complexes scattered throughout our county. Victims can be your neighbor, the people you work with or even the people you go to church with. There are the misconceptions that domestic violence is a crime that occurs more among the poor, the uneducated, or that two women in a relationship can't batter each other. People forget this all until you see Rihanna's battered face all over TMZ... guess what, she is one of thousands of women that experience this every year. The sad thing is that she is going back and showing woman that it's ok to go back, that you can trust this man that just attempted to take your life... well sweetie it isn't ok.
Last weekend was my first big Gala, I was even the event chair (click here for pictures). It was such an amazing event helping the youth in shelters in Huntington Beach. I had such a good time, I was so sad that Grant missed it. I know he feels left out of certain things in our life but between work and the Army it just kinda happens. Idon't know what I will do when/if he goes on deployment... a year without my best friend. DEVASTATING!
Over the past 2 years I have lost so many 'friends' even ones i considered more like family, he has been the only consistant in my life and I don't trust others very easily so I can only hope that the relationship I am making now with the H & S wives and well as old friends can withstand the deployment. AHHH.... too much stress. ha ha.