New Year New possibilites!

Next Thursday is my last day at WaMu, after our 60 day working layoff is over. This is a very bitter sweet moment for me as I don't necessarily LOVE this job and would rather find a career however not having a new job yet is scary. I have been very blessed this past year with job opportunities and layoffs but 2009 is a new year. I am going to try to enjoy life more this year, enjoy my family and the wonderful blessings that we do have. I am not going to dwell on the negative... no matter how much people want me to. I want to see the smiles of those around me, I want to know that every day I am making a difference to someone.

I have been good about going to the childrens group at the second step every Thursday and I truly love that and find it so rewarding to watch these children grow. To know that they have had such a tough childhood and, even if only for 2 hours, I can help make it a little better. Some of the kids there are amazing and I am enjoying learning about each one. I want to give them more, give the center some new toys... outdoor stuff that gets them all active, come up with some fun ideas to get them moving and not just sitting and watching TV. I wonder what each of them will be like as adults, will they in turn be an abuser or will they grow up to be wonderful people. Only time will tell that.

I am trying to spend more fun time with Krystina as well... yesterday we went running/bike riding. (I ran she rode) We had so much fun and it gets her away from the TV. We have decided to find some fun learning stuff for her to do at home before dinner and only have tv after dinner... she is having some problems writing backwards letters. She is at such a fun yet frustrating age

Always changing!

As individuals we are always changing and growing... whether it be literally or figuratively it never ends. I watch Krystina growing and changing daily, some days I can do without the stubbornness but I know that it means she is learning more. Being a parent is trying, wonderful, tiring and amazing all at once. I also notice Grant and I growing and changing. I am looking for a job, once again, but this time I am looking for something I love, not just something to passt he time. I would love a career. I woudl love to do something in the non profit field. Something that I believe in and love, something that I can be proud of. I wish I could stay home and be a full time mom but honestly I don't think that I have that in me at this point. I see my wonderful husband changing. He is an amazing father but I still see him growing with her all the time. I see their relationship changing and evolving and I love that. I never thought that growing up was that cool... all the responsibility involved did nothing for me. Now that I am barely 6 months from my 30th birthday I am realizing that growing up isn't that bad... It is even a bit enjoyable.