Ok... SOOOO Over it!

After my total meltdown on Saturday... yep there was anger and crying... I have decided that people suck and that is just life. Saturday night we were able to go out with some friends to the pumpkin patch. One couple, I met the wife and daughter last month but he and Grant work together, have a little girl that is the same age as Krystina. The girls had a blast running around for over 2 hours and the moms had fun talking about whatever it is moms talk about... ok and the dads had a great time talking about work and guns. It was so nice to hang out with another mom that understands parenting and how much we have to put in to be good parents. I don't look at my mommy job as a chore, it's one that I love but there is alot more work in being a mommy than people think. Then another couple showed up, they are a little younger than us but are currently without children. The wife is a snob... I mean she barely got off of her cell phone long enough to say hello. She treats me like crap... has pretty much since day one. She has made snide comments on myspace about watching Krystina ONCE even though it was her husband that offered. In her defense I did meet her at a Hawaiian Tropic contest that I was competing in last year BUT anyone who talks to me for more than 5 minutes knows that I am not 'that type' of girl. I am not the girl that thinks that I am better than anyone, everyone has amazing qualities to them and I am so happy in my life I do not want her husband! I don't understand women that let their insecurities run/ruin their life. My life revolves around my 4 year old, Disney and Target... I don't really care too much about nice purses or shoes because if they arent functional in my busy life then I don't really need them... ALTHOUGH a really nice purse for Christmas would be a pretty neat gift. Anyhow... back to my point. So here we are 3 couples, 2 four year olds and I realize that the friends that I make and meet now are probably the friends that Grant and I will keep. Not to say that the friends that have stuck by me, especially over the last 2 years don't mean the world to me now and I will always (hopefully!) have those friendships too. My point to this rambling is that the people that are truly part of my life now are the ones that matter not the twits that turn their back when a friendship gets hard or starts to rely on emails and phone calls. Just because you are friends does not mean you have to or even get to see those people all the time. Sometimes life gets in the way. Some of the people that I confide in and trust the most I don't see very often, some I haven't seen in 10 years plus but they are still such good friends. I guess it's true, that if you don't have kids you just don't understand the responsibility and time that is involved in being a good parent. I left Saturday night feeling blessed that we have good friends, I look forward to spending more time with the mommy and daughter we were with and moving on with my adult life.
Oh and the other thing I realized is that God truly has a sense of humor and makes you understand your own humility at the most inopportune times... like the couple that is CONSTANTLY talking divorce after 1 year gets pregnant. Could it get funnier than that... oh why yes it can... they announced their pregnancy less than 12 hours after finding out. This is also after doing the same thing last year, except they had a huge party celebrating a mere 4 days after finding out, and sadly they lost that baby. Why put yourself through that all over again... I spent the evening contiplating my own life and what I was doing wrong to not be able to get pregnant but guess what, God blessed us with an amazing little girl and maybe he thinks that she needs more alone time with mommy and daddy before becoming a big sister. Who knows but I am going to do better remembering what I have instead of what I don't. Lord knows I wouldnt tell the world the day I find out I am pregnant.. that is WAY too scary for me. Now will I be able to keep a total secret for 12 weeks, lets not get crazy and think that certain people in my life wouldn't figure it out and I can't lie.... I love you baby... Grant and I made an agreement to wait the 12 weeks and sadly I think those may be among the longest of my life... we shall see when the day comes.