I mean it still hurts and makes me very sad, also reminding me why I DON'T open up to people...
You know the biggest difference between me and them... I get a kiss and an 'I love you mommy' and it's all better. Here are her Pre-K school pictures
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Are people REALLY that bad!?
For 4 years there was a group of 5 of us that were inseparable, we carpooled and traveled together with Hawaiian Tropic... then the craziest thing happened. I picked up my daughter and each of them split, seemingly overnight! I think there was one lunch 4 months later, more so to gawk at how bad I looked I am sure. Now almost 2 years later there has been one more dinner and maybe a handful of phone calls. They all walked away from me but still have each other. Grant is my best friend, as it should be... but when I am upset with him I have no one to turn to. I don't trust easily, it takes so much to open up to trust you with anything. Why is it that becoming a mom also made me a leper in the same breath. I realize that THEY didn't have 9 months to get used to the idea of me becoming a mommy, but I went through hell for 10 months praying I would even get her, but there was only ONE invitation that I missed and it was because I fell asleep on the couch while she was sick 3 weeks after she came to us. COME ON! I have made so many excuses for THEM over the past 2 years... so many and guess what, it still hurts.
I mean it still hurts and makes me very sad, also reminding me why I DON'T open up to people...
You know the biggest difference between me and them... I get a kiss and an 'I love you mommy' and it's all better. Here are her Pre-K school pictures
I mean it still hurts and makes me very sad, also reminding me why I DON'T open up to people...
You know the biggest difference between me and them... I get a kiss and an 'I love you mommy' and it's all better. Here are her Pre-K school pictures
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Her school pictures turned out adorable!
As for the friends issue... maybe they want what you have... a family. They don't have kids and/or husbands do they? Envy can push people away too. Just an idea. Give it some time... I went through a hard time with one of my bridesmaid.. we've been friends since we we 10... she'd have my back for anything... but this past year... it just stopped. She married... and it just seemed like she was out of my life (she is also Bella's godmother.) What it came down too... is that I didn't not like her husband... I think I felt like he was taking my friend away from me. Which I learned was not the case... he is a good guy... and she was happy... it just took me a while to get use to the fact that things were different. Perhaps your friends feel that way but don't know how to talk to you about it. Maybe they miss you (just like you are missing them.) Have you talked to them and told them that your feelings are hurt?
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