Friday

Last night I went and saw, and held, and annoyed baby Gavin. Sitting in the hospital with my sister and Greg, seeing the love they both have for this little boy got me to thinking. While I have gone through this baby stage 5 times, true, he is making me an Aunt for the SEVENTH time (Krista has 2 boys & 3 girls and Renee has 2 boys!) I am really jealous. I do want another child. I can actually say that out loud... I WANT A BABY. I want another little one, I want to experience breast feeding and being up all night... I can do without experiencing collick (however you spell it!). Sadly I even want to experience the spitting up, the diaper changes.... but along with all of that I want to experience the cooing, the first words... the first steps. All of the things that I did not experience with our little noodela! She has made me a wonderful mom, she has made me want to be a wonderful person. So often she is the reason that I do most things. I am blessed enough to have an amazing husband that is the center of my life, but so is our little girl. The two of them have been the glue that has held my sanity together... oh ok... they are also the solvent that pulls my sanity apart. Admittedly there are nights that I want to run screaming now, so that will be NO different if there is another one in our household but I KNOW that I have enough love for another little one... if we have to adopt, I am ok with that (obviously) but I do want to adopt a baby. I want to take a little picture like this with Grant, Krystina and I and our new baby... don't start with me on names because we can only agree on the boy but hey, we have more than 9 months to even worry about it...
That is enough with my little rant for the day. HAve an awesome weekend.