Wow... what a week!

Grant is home... YAY! I am so glad that I get to sleep in bed with him, talk to him and just generally have him around. I am very luck and I know this. Our weekend felt like it just flew by. I spent most of Saturday stressed about my pageant orientation Sunday, then I spent Sunday driving to Bakersfield with another contestant. I realized by the end of the day that:

1. I feel too old to do this


2. I do really want to make a difference in this world


3. I have the most supportive husband ever to allow me to do this and follow this dream


4. I really want to do well (ok, I really want to win)

Today is going to be a good day, only one more day of work. Friday is going to be fun, Travis is supposed to come out, I love 4th of July and Grant will be here. I worry about the future, I worry about Grant heading back to Iraq or Afghanistan, I worry about letting everyone down and losing miserably at this pageant. I have so much passion about prevention and awareness of Domestic Violence. The question was raised in my family, am I going to share my personal feelings and events to pageant people to explain my passion. Sadly, the answer is... I don't know. I don't know if I am willing to share that piece of me, I don't know if I am able to admit it to someone that I don't know. I don't want to sell my self out for this pageant but maybe, just maybe my passion will come across in my admission. I don't know. I do know that I am excited about it all and nervous and everything else. Oh and I changed my dress choice: