Silly mommy

Last night I got to spend some much needed time with friends. A girlfriend of mine is a makeup artist and last night she needed a character model for her Media Makeup class... initially I was going to be made into a vampire BUT when I got there it was actually a zombie. It was fun to just be out doing a ton of nothing around girls and gay men. Sitting there made me miss modeling and really made me want to push to do it again and follow my dreams. I have wanted to model for pretty much my whole life... then I gave it up and not totally sure why. I know that Grant wouldn't have wanted me to or made me, I know that I don't want Krystina to ever give up on hers so I guess I need to teach by doing and not by the old 'Do as I say not as I do' mentality.


With that being said, I am going to really push to get my body back where I want it... healthy, not waif like. I want to be toned but not lose too much of my weight (honestly only about 2-4lbs MAX) and just add some muscle and I would be happy. I love my family and never want to take away from my family time or my family dynamic because I love what Grant, Krystina and I have but I don't ever want to wonder, 'What if..."

Here are some pictures of my Zombie transformation from last night...