This morning Krystina and I got ready to go early so we made a mommy and me trip to Starbucks. She had the organic milk (sounds SO nasty to me) and I had my normal Carmel Macchiato with an additional 2 shots of espresso. She loves this time so much, so do I. Then I dropped her off to school and I headed to work. I have loved every minute of my time with her the past several days. I do worry about how she is going to be when daddy gets home, I wonder what is going on in that little head of hers. Does she think that he abandoned her because she really is too young to understand, does she know that he is coming back... what? I worry so much that when he gets home she is going to rebel and refuse to listen to him. I know that he is having a hard time with all of this too... I mean how could you not. I don't want to ever feel like our family is holding him back from things because she reacts to things differently than other children. He is her first daddy, he is the first man to really be in her life so I know that it is all harder for her to deal with and understand. I try to explain as much as I can to her so that she knows that her daddy loves her and wants to be there but can't because of the Army or his work. I love them both so much and hate to see them struggle.... especially in understanding eachother.
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