Full steam ahead!

Well... now that the birthday is done (had a great time by the way!) I can look forward to the next large thing, DRILL. Grant has drill, then a week long work thing... then drill. I am not in a marriage where I look forward to being apart, I don't feel like I need a break. In all reality I really miss him when he isn't there. I do look at is as a chance for growth and to confirm that I am capable of being a mother and a wife without him. I always have the possibility of deployment in the back of my head and never want to feel so dependant on him that I wouldn't be able to function without him, I don't think that is healthy. I see women that can not be productive members of society without their husband attached to their hip and while I miss him like crazy when he is gone I know that I am perfectly capable of doing what needs to be done even when Grant is gone. I am still a wonderful mother, a little less strict I am sure, a good employee and a devoted wife with or without Grant coming home at night.

I had such a great time with our friends on Saturday and realized that I have some of the best friends ever, the people that were there care about us and our daughter and for that I am grateful. I know that I would be there for any one of those people and know the same applies for them. Grant got to meet some of my friends from before our relationship and I got to see some of his old friends as well. We were even lucky enough to have one of the little girls from Krystina's class come... it was so cute to watch. I think that my mind wanders about another child... I love my daughter and never want to change the relationship that we have but I also feel bad that she plays by herself exceptionally well. I love that little girl to pieces... heck I still watch her sleep at night. My life is my family, my husband and my daughter, and that is a bond and a dynamic that I love. We are all so close in our own way.

Here we go... we are off to a great start on another week. I have another few days before he leaves again and I will love every moment of it and I do cherish the time we have together. I am so madly in love with this man.