Now that we have neared the middle of the week I have a few moments to really think. I have a friend who joked with me that I need a new project; first it was getting little one home, then the wedding, Termination of Rights, the adoption... now what. Well, I am going to start training for the Avon 40 mile walk that my wonderful Mother-inLaw and I are participating in September, that's a good project for now. I have to buy new shoes to break in soon and really start walking... I don't think that I can just show up and do 40 miles in 2 days.
I woke up this morning so unbelievably irritable... kinda weird for me. I have not had to deal with PMS or any weird moods for quite some time. I am finally feeling the after effects of the adoption, the complete lack of stress. I no longer feel the weight of the world on my shoulders, I have a nice sense of calm. I am still irritable, people's insensitivity is annoying me... their total ability to be oblivious of others, their thoughts or their feelings is something I find TRULY amazing. I am lucky that I have an awesome husband that really allows me to vent when people get out of control in my mind. I know that I expect a certain thing from people. I expect people to be conscience of other feelings, I expect to be treated with respect, I expect people to respect my family (that includes my daughter)... I expect you to do what you say you will and I expect you to be a friend if that is the title you expect me to use when referring to you.
OK... maybe that sounds like a lot but it isn't any more than I expect of myself when I am interacting with someone. I have no tolerance for excuses either... I mean to be randomly insensitive is one thing, I know we all get wrapped up in our own lives and may accidently say or do something that is inappropriate but to do it all the time and then I have to listen to people making excuses that you just don't think... REALLY! Once you are an adult you are responsible for your actions, right or wrong but at least own them regardless. ARG!
I am going to the gym and try to work some of my annoyance off before my loving family gets home... I would hate to have them see this yucky side of me.
I woke up this morning so unbelievably irritable... kinda weird for me. I have not had to deal with PMS or any weird moods for quite some time. I am finally feeling the after effects of the adoption, the complete lack of stress. I no longer feel the weight of the world on my shoulders, I have a nice sense of calm. I am still irritable, people's insensitivity is annoying me... their total ability to be oblivious of others, their thoughts or their feelings is something I find TRULY amazing. I am lucky that I have an awesome husband that really allows me to vent when people get out of control in my mind. I know that I expect a certain thing from people. I expect people to be conscience of other feelings, I expect to be treated with respect, I expect people to respect my family (that includes my daughter)... I expect you to do what you say you will and I expect you to be a friend if that is the title you expect me to use when referring to you.
OK... maybe that sounds like a lot but it isn't any more than I expect of myself when I am interacting with someone. I have no tolerance for excuses either... I mean to be randomly insensitive is one thing, I know we all get wrapped up in our own lives and may accidently say or do something that is inappropriate but to do it all the time and then I have to listen to people making excuses that you just don't think... REALLY! Once you are an adult you are responsible for your actions, right or wrong but at least own them regardless. ARG!
I am going to the gym and try to work some of my annoyance off before my loving family gets home... I would hate to have them see this yucky side of me.
I did forget to mention, random coolness, that I was able to see Carrie Underwood and Keith Urban last week. We had great seats, I went with a friend Jamie... We thoroughly enjoyed ourselves... it was great
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